haiis.. one of moilx frenx say i tok ting, in e end nt counted de.. like i say sthim den after dat i do another ting de.. actually i oso agreed leh.. in e past.. oos ppl say i cant decide tings well.. haiis.. i guess so bahhx.. when decide ting, i will tend to regret easily.. haiis.. if nt i anyhow make desision.. haiis. am i failure.. pretty sad.. i always like to run away when ting happened.. or jux push e blame everythin to sthim else.. haiis.. i dun wish to admit.. but jux like it proven lor..haiis.. how can i change to better.. wad shld i do..?
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10/26/2006 09:34:00 PM
today a tiring day.. sux -_-"
wake up at 5.45am .. faster go prepared.. to Go attachment le.. den reached.. wa.. i'm e earilest ehh.. hahaha.. 6.35am reach le.. cool =P when starts to take report.. heard dat short of staff today.. i know moilx life ish nt gg to be good liao.. 1stly.. i uSually dun need gib patient oral toilet de.. so called let dem rinse their mouth all this.. but today looks like moilx patient all need! Somemore, e 1st patient bed 41.. i gib mouth gargle..she asked to ask mi washed her denture for her sia.. wtf!! when i was washing it, all moilx appeite all gone liao lah..yuckz man! den secondly.. when wash finish all.. i start to feed patient, dat fcuking pt seem like.. bo song bo song liddat.. water..porridge..water..porridge..sia la.. ur maid ah.. !! after feeding, turn over ish another pt..this pt gt dementia..gt to coax her to eat this kind lah.. den after dat brg her go brush teeth .. den gt to coax her to bath oso.. cox she doesn't want to la.. den brg her go bath.. in M shift e most hate ting to do ish bath pt liao.. all moilx shoes get so wet.. when fianlly bath finsh, come out.. take 4hr parameter.. update I/O chart.. tot can rest n slack liao.. den SN catch mi to bath bed 41.. indian de.. which i help her wash denture dat one loR..-_-" den brg her bathing.. she wana wash her hair.. u guys know how bloody long is it mahh.. diaox lor.. den wash so xin ku liao.. she still like ask mi made totally dry for her somemore ask gt conditioner ant leh.. totally treat mi like shampoo gal.. outside still gt so many undone job , here i'm like noob drying hair for her.. make nice nice somemore..! den go out lia9..i went to help moilx frenx do some shit job.. den come back.. " missy ah" brg mi to toilet again.. dat indian de la.. i wan make nice nice moilx hair.. nt dry enough , dry somemore!! i was smilling to her.. but deep in moilx heary was like.." throwing e name tag. i quit" hahahaha.. but.. dreaming la.. =P den updat I/O again.. den finally.. BREAk tIme! wahaha.. shiok la.. but ended so fast.. den back.. do all those shit job again lor.." missy ah.. change pampers..missy ahh.. i wan water" call bell keep on ringing lor.. feel like plugging ogg e main switch for call bell.. hahaa.. den today stay back till 4pm liddat.. do case study.. kekez.. tmr off leh.. gd life.. haha.. oh ya.. wen came yck find mii leh.. even i ask him go hm.. so caring.. kekez.. thanks wen.. ^_^
baobao roCkz..
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10/26/2006 06:12:00 PM
latest uPdate... ^_^
yo.. jiemeiz men..! dui bu qi wor.. so long nv update le.. i tink onli yiyi n wen asking mi to update bahhx.. haha.. zai guo bu jiu i wana announce i'll seldom blog le.. hehe.. hmm.. friendster oso veri few go in liao.. so.. sorry wor.. anythin impt mux contact mi thru hp better.. hehe.. ard one week nv sit infront of com le bahhx i guess.. haha..lolx.. thanz to moilx bro lah.. keep staying at home.. den attachment always tio afternoon shift.. duno wad e hell.. siianx.. thIs few day same lor.. hangin out wib ah wen, n moilx ITE frenx.. haha.. this sat gg zoo wib wen, jun wei, doris, tink doris bf bahhx n bel..hehe.. so excited.. this program so surprizing ish doris plan de.. haha.. wen dui bu qi, know u dun quite like gg zoo.. haha..dun worry ur smell wun go away de.. kekez.. today i went watch death note wib wen.. wow.. so sway.. see roy siia.. haha.. so mani ppl watching lor.. siianx.. hmm.. den e show veri nice.. ! wish to watch again leh.. today moilx sis ask mi one question.. r u happi now? dotx... wad do u guys tinks? hahahahahahhahaha..
lastest update.. feeling great now.. freedom.. relaxing.. =) happii everyday.. ^_^ partly ish wen bahhx.. thanks alot.. 3 in 1.. =) really verii happii.. no trouble.. everythin u solve liao.. haha.. thanks alot.. as for yiyi.. eh.. when come out leh? kekez..o nv update leh.. siianx.. ii feeling happi now, dun worry hehe.. wad abt u? anythin came out from u n dat guy?
^_^
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10/25/2006 12:23:00 AM
ii hurt him.. he ish still verii nice..
today in e morning.. i acc wen go ITE.. hmm.. i was late.. haha.. den we meet amk mahh.. den take 130 bus to his skol.. den in bus he say he dun wish go.. right from start he dun wan le actually.. haha.. den after reach his skol actually he jux acc mi opposite bustop wait for bus.. den bus came, den he get on e bus wib mi.. haha.. sae send mi home.. haha.. excuses..! den anyway we went to eat mac at kbcc der de mac lor.. den eat le.. den he send mi home den wait for mi to get ready to go attachment.. den okiie le.. he send mii go attachment lor as usual. den during.. these day.. i felt happii being wib him.. he treat mii real gd..100% nice bf.. but today sthim happened.. ish moilx fault actually.. haiis.. in e evenin.. i told him le.. i wana be single again.. haiis.. ish all moilx fault.. i hurt him.. but yet.. he didn't blame mi, nv scold mi.. nthn at all.. i really speechless when he liddat.. haiis.. i dunO wad to do for him.. he ish being so nice to mi, everythin oso okiie to moilx request.. really verii nice.. nthn i say he dun agree de.. worry for mii day n nite.. 24hrs for mii.. haiis.. but yet.. i hurt him.. he nv complaint anythin.. even he sad.. he act as he ish nt.. he jux keep quiet and stay by mii.. smile to mii.. like as if he ish happii.. but i know he ish nt.. i know he ish unhappii.. cox of moilx undecided stuff hurt him.. i verii bad n guilty.. haiis.. how.. can anyone help mi? -_-" after attachment, i kinda worry abt how he felt.. i wana see his expression.. he nv come down pick mi up cox eh.. his mummy dun let la.. quite late le, tmr gt skol.. his mum was quite strict.. anyway.. i went down find him.. den he came down lor.. den we sat down n tok..tings like different.. i cant explain wad's different.. but.. ii acn feel he ish unhappii.. but he didn't ask why .. why i do this.. he didn't balme nv gib attitude.. still quietly chat wib him.. tok abt our frenx all this..after finsh.. he finally sae sthim regarding abt this topic.. i forget wad le.. but..i really wanted him to scold mi de.. no matter how.. i oos dun mind.. but he jux keep quiet n smile to mii , shows that like everythin ish still fine.. he ish still gg to be there for mi when i need him.. that feeling.. but e more it ish.. e more i feel bad.. he liddat ish e 1st time i met..treat mi so gd n onli he ish e onli guy except moilx dad.. haiis.. he ish so nice le yet i could sae break to him.. xiao meii bao.. wad are euu doin.. haiis.. ah wen.. can u scold mi or sthim? e onli ting u say was.. " jux sad dat why i finally can tgth wib u but now gt to let go" it really made mii sad n angry of myself.. haiis.. i duno wad shld i do to made it up to u.. haiis.. time? i duno wad will happemed in future.. but now.. i jux wish to totally forget e other person.. totally dun tink abt it... till den i acn relax go for relationship.. as for ah wen.. i'm really sorry.. i cant ask u wait for mii..but.. haiis.. do we had fate? did i do wrongly? can we jux remain e past for kinda while 1st..? ans mii..
dui bu qi ah wen.. baoabo shou sorry..
dun sad.. ah wen korkor ish e best.. =P
sincerely sorryy.. i really duno wad to do.. sry i always giving trouble to euu.. sry.. last time till now.. still e same.. sry..
baobao's sob sob -_-"
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10/17/2006 11:50:00 PM
surpriseeeeee......! =P
past few day nv blog.. so siianx.. hmm.. ytd.. i finally know jux what kind of person are you.. now, regardless wad ting u say or tel mi.. i wun belive anymore.. if i know all this, i shldn't had patch wib u when e karen ting happened.. i shld had belive jian liang words..!! dun act innocent infront of mi till like u are being set up.. mayb u too many le so u dun even know u did how mani time.. haiis.. cox of all this.. i tink i shldn't had felt guilty of myself e other day.. so foolish.. so stupid!!! life goes on.. i'll carry on to find moilx happiness.. in e past i still tot of u that's why i keep asked time from mun.. i tot of ur feeling.. scare u might get hurt.. but.. right now.. ii decided nt gg let myself down.. and i'll treasure mun.. =P * rest assured i nt gg to hate you.. because i dun even wish to bother either*
hmm.. anyway e topic to blog today ish nt those ting lah.. hmm.. ish actually.. today gg afternoon shift.. so tired leh.. den somemore stomach pain.. den before g out of moilx hs, mummy still made mi so angry..!! arggh!! den proceed on to attachment.. so hope dat time faster pass.. duno why today so many ting to do.. dotx.. tired sia.. today wen told mi he wun be coming..and i know..but after dat gg off work dat time, he cal mi.. like ask mi alot of unusaual question.. made mi start to assume that he gt come..usually when he comes, he always wait for mi at polar siting der, den today i went down den nv saw.. before gg down we were chatting on ph.. den moilx heart was tinkin whether he gt come ant.. hehex.. but when i go downstir.. no one was wearing a hat leh.. so i quite disappointed.. den lina they all go foodcourt der buy ting, i abt to follow.. den this den, someone tap moilx head.. yeah!! =P ish him lehh.. so happii.. hehe.. he really come.. i tink onli he can afford to gib mi this surprise bahh.. hehe.. last time i always hope moilx ex would gib mi this kind of surprise but i alwayys cant get.. but now.. wen did it for mi.. heheh.. i really veri happii when i saw him.. den i was tinking dun go eat wib jun wei they all cox i wan to go home wib him, cox he cant tgth go eat he cant stay out too late today.. hehe.. i really veri happi today.. hehe.. den we go take ting from doris den buy food den he send mi home as usually.. =P den he jiu go home le.. 0.o
end of baobao's day wib a big smile =)
misses euu lots!!
bao luv wen =P
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10/16/2006 11:18:00 PM
err..
i duno shld i belive u or wad.. u sae u do all this ish jux to let mi n him get tgth. i really duno wad to belive u.. or is it another excuse for u to be pity by others.. u gt alot tinking n motive i really dun understand.. hmm.. aniway.. wad past ish past.. i'll rmb how u judge mi.. dat's e fact.. u take care ..
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10/14/2006 10:40:00 AM
stay by mii forever ...
guys.. one day come out leh.. i wan to show u all e person whu ish veri impt to mi right now.. he ish e one whu stand by mi always regardless i gt bf anot.. whenever i happii or unhappii he always share wib mi.. e one whu will rush down to mi when i needed him.. today.. he send mi a msg after knowing i was scold by dat idiot..he send mi.. " when u sad, i'll be e one behind u, when u happii i'll be e one infront of u, when u cry, i'll be hugging u, when u angry, i'll be fighting for u..jux wan to let u know..i'm e one always be wib u. no matter how ppl sae.. to him.. i'm always wonderful" at dat veri moment.. i feel dat i cant dun hav him.. i really love him.. i learn to rely on him.. i wan to be forever wib him.. he dun mind waiting how long.. he still treat mi well forever.. not like those whu onli know how to big talk.. he ish so diff.. i always tot n scare dat guy cant be trusted.. he make mi feel dat even if gana cheated i jux wan to be wib him.. stay quietly beside him.. he always sae.. u dun need to do anythin.. jux stay by my side jiu can liao.. always feel so sorry for him.. cox when wib zhi zhong, i went back find zhi zhong, i like zhi zhong i always tel him nv care abt hw he will feel.. he still quietly ok wib mi.. i hurt him .. i show moilx temper to him alot time..but he oso ok.. jux a smile n sae ok..he ish veri gentlman.. he ish always waiting for mi.. always i late.. attchment no matter how late.. how early.. he wait up n send mii..he nv fail to care for mi before.. i feel so relax wib him.. cox i sae wad he oso ok.. no pressure.. he nv force mi.. nv scold mi.. i feel veri happi wib him.. how angry am i .. i will still smile when wib him.. onli he make mi do so.. he always brigten moilx day up.. i dun need to disguis myself when wib him.. cox he dun mind everythin.. he saw all moilx bad habit le.. he oso ok ok ok.. everythin when i say it.. he will sae " hao" i really love him.. wan to be wib him forever..jux like now.. gt him even if e sky ish gg to drop he will still be der for mi... when i fall aslp , feel tired.. he will be carrying mi on his back without complaining of tired.. he take care of mi in chalet e whole nite.. watch over mii .. i really feel so lucky to have him.. when he was moilx god bro, he treat mi n dote on mi now.. he oso e same.. for past few yrs.. he always der for mi.. when i cry.. he sayang mi.. i need wad.. he will get it for mii.. i say wad he will help mi n get it for mi..he nv sae no to mi before.. he always listen to mi.. to others u all may sae him wad ever i dun care.. but.. to mi..he ish moilx sweets baobeii.. i will treasure him.. treat him gd.. becox is worth it.. no one treat mi more gd den he treat mi le.. he ish e best.. he will do all e impossible ting jux for mi.. he had alot cute way of himself.. e way he speak.. his action.. being wib him moilx heartbeat always so fast.. hehe.. i jux feel veri safe wib him.. he dun mind everythin.. wadever ting i oso will tel him.. he share everythin wib mi.. he mean wad he sae.. i really love him.. wan to be with him.. wan to see him everyday.. when i feel sad, when i hug him.. every trouble will be gone.. he ish always der for mii and he prove it.. ish ish always jux for mi.. i'll nv leave him.. unless he wans mi to go.. but i still will stand by him no matter wad.. this ish moilx promise.. hehex.. he wun necglect mii for other ting.. he will always put mi in 1st place.. i jux duno how to describ him.. he ish jux so wonderfull.. even moilx frenx oso sae i wib him so happii.. i belive him.. he ish e one whu make mi smile jux for him.. he nv scold mi for every mistake i do.. even if he pat mi on moilx leg when i keep shaking.. after dat he will sayang mi.. he dun like drinking milk i say drink he will drink.. he take initiative to ask moilx ting.. he gt alot ting which we can get along.. last time till now forever e same.. he ish so great.. hehex.. super dote on mi.. this person.. he ish.. u guys shld know.. one day those moilx ite frenx outside frenx i'll show u all.. moilx most update.. hehex... miss him lots.. =)when e time ish right we will be tgth.. now i still single ish cox.. i still need time.. hmm..
sorry to wait for mi again n again.. i promise.. one day when we tgth.. i will make it up to u wadever i can.. gib u e warmest family care .. u be e most fortunate person in this world.. u r moilx forever prince..
baobao love ah wen .. ^_^
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10/14/2006 02:06:00 AM
two silly fool... wahahah...
today after moilx attachment ish 3pm mah.. den i meeting mun.. hmm.. den.. actually we gg home de.. we take train to tpy to take bus to moilx hs mah.. den.. during bus we fall aslp.. den reach sengkang.. we so toopid leh.. den.. we keep laughing.. den we go sengkang eat .. den after dat gg home liao.. take e bus bk.. den i fall aslp den mun duno wher moilx hs den we sit all e way bk to tpy again.. dotx lor.. hmm .. den take bus bk.. tis time.. dun dare slp liao.. haha.. when reach moilx hs.. den he go hOme lo.. den tmr gg chalet.. with bel oso.. verii hapii she can make it.. cox finally can go red hs le.. =) hope can lor.. hehe.. attachment so tired.. gg slp liao.. =)
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10/10/2006 11:07:00 PM
baobao's 1st day at attachment..
today shi baobao's 1st day at attachment again wor.. tot was an orantaion but nv did i expect straight start work siia.. hmm.. 1st day feeling.. how do i describe leh? ehh.. bored? oxygen really sux.. i almost vomit le.. haiis.. headache.. but nt veri heavy.. jux a slightly.. hmm.. today really bored man.. gt to do wib those NYP.. seriously speaking.. i dun really like pairing up with dem ehh.. but.. looks like no chioce.. den jux hoping faster over.. tmr M shift.. jux to declear.. baobao's quit her job liao.. diaox!! dun ask mi de reason.. i dun wana say.. thxs.. =p haiis.. so mani ting happened recently.. today i'm still tinking alot ting.. but return home.. i saw zz friendster.. plus his nick.. look like.. he ish back to his life.. so i dun feel anythin bad oso liao bahhx.. hmm.. siianx.. plus ish he edit e friendster 1st de.. nt mii.. moilx frenx sae jux follow moilx feeling go.. yupp.. i tink so too.. but i still need some times.. sry e one being der fro mii ..
uu really treat mii gd.. wait for mi without any complain.. hmm.. always being der for mii always when i need euu.. thanks tyou so much.. really.. duno hw to sae oso.. time will proves everythin.. rest well k.. ^_^
jia you..
* euu are e one whu make mii fall in luv with euu * ^_^
baobao rockx... =)
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10/09/2006 10:32:00 PM
life meaning...
i get to know alot abt life meaning today..ish really meaningful..
i wish to share with ppl whu read moilx Blog.. =)
wad does love means to uu guys?
L - look
O - observe
V - verify
E - enjoy
means to sae u gt to look, observe, verify get marry n enjoy.. =) there ish two type of love..one ish Live On Violent Ending & Live On Victory Ending.. the 1st kind which i mention ish relatioship that always quarrel but e sec one ish true love.. depend on hw u manage.. in this life.. u gt learn to give n take.. den u will capture e key to ur entire life.. understand..
den wAd does family means to euu guys?
F - father F - father F - father
A - and A - and A - and
M - mother M - mother M - mother
I - I I - I I - I
L - Love L - lie L - leave
Y - you Y - you Y - you
during the age of 10 - 16th yrs.. family means father and mother i love you.. but during e age of 16 - 20th ish father and mother i lie you, that u are in ur rebellious period and during e age of 20-30 yrs old.. it means father and mother i leave you.. that's when u are gg move on when u get marry.. and slowly.. u mux learn to know wad's right and wrong.. by e time.. u know it.. u will go veri smoothly in ur life...
during ur young age.. wAd doeS ABC meAnS? it means A for apple, B for boy, while C ish for cat.. but when u get older.. it had diff meaning again.. ABCDE - always be careful, danger everywher.. ish really veri meaningful so i want to share with you guys.. hmm.. hehex..
i gg take a break.. i want to tink.. hw do i wan moilx life to be in future.. i wan to plan.. so guys.. give mi ur fullest support.. =)
baobao's ish strong again.. =) nthn ish gg to stop mi.. mi ish mii..=)
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10/05/2006 10:50:00 PM
specially for yiyi...
yiyii really underastand how much u concern abt mi..ii really veri appreciate that u know..euu are same as mii.. regardless ur char, e way we hang out..when i go out wib u, i dun feel that im being look down,or even feel i'm being isolated.. or even feel no confident..as though as we are same level.. wad i wan to sae i jux say..u make mii feel this way.. that's why we are buddy..buddy to mi.. not meaning to know everythin of wad she ish doin..or even muxt know her everythin..moilx buddy ish..jux merely leave mi alone when i needed e peace.. jux stay quietly by moilx side with mii.. that's enough.. euu were saying kate ish closer to mi?when did u become such low conffidence?we always hang out pal e best.. u understand mi, i understand euu..isn't it? kate.. yes.. sometime i n her quite close.. she know moilx ting quite alot.. that's cox.. she know moilx ex too.. easy to share..and she ish emotion in that type..but there ish tings that ish i share with u but nt her..each n everyone have ur diff place in moilx heart..so, dun compare.. if nt.. that will really be silly yiyi..=)as for moilx relationship..for now.. i jux wish to stay single.. haiis.. i so stress.. but i dun wish to blog moilx love ting here..i dun wan let ppl read.. haha.. hmm.. gt time come out? after moilx attachment.. M shift..den we come out tok tok lahh..hmm.. seriously speaking.. i need a listening ear badly..haiis... baoyi jiemeiiz Rockz !! ^_^
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10/05/2006 10:21:00 PM
broken heart... ...
a broken heart dat could not be mended anymore.. tears drop.. fell down to moilx cheek n goes into moilx heart.. salted .. bitter.. lack of sweetness.. thur promise been broken.. finger to finger promise does nt works at all.. nt gg do it again.. baobao chose to be isolated.. again.. ended being sacastic.. why.. i asked for it?.. till the end.. u still dun chose to reflex on urself.. i dun ask for it..
" is good that euu will nv tel mi ur feeling because i dun wish to know and is none of moilx concern. haha. and i duneven care man!"
this sentence totally break moilx impression of euu in moilx heart.. i had enough.. no matter how much i love you.. i 'm gg give up.. i love you deeply.. but ur action.. made mii chose to give up.. rather be alone.. ish more relax.. dun send mii all those gd luck stuff.. wasting ur msg.. save it..!!
story started on 19th april 2006..
ended on 03thsept2006
a pity.. we couldn't till the end.. since you say u can find a better gal.. den i wish u gd luck..
baobao ish speechless!!
: _ _ (
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10/04/2006 02:19:00 AM
busy working...
hmm.. halo guRLx n guyS.. =)
hmm.. pretty long nv blog le eh..kekez.. too busy working.. hmm..off day oso book liao.. after tis week den gg start attachment liao.. once again another words.. - S.I.A.N - haiis.. hmm.. now currently working in amk de cinema.. pay quite low.. but.. i wan more money.. haiis.. but working der abit bored leh.. diiaox.. jia you meiibao.. !! go go jia you.. =) now working le.. really veri tired.. haiis.. whu can lend mii her/his shoulder.. haiis.. whu can help mi cover away all e stressful situation.. haiis.. i really verii tired.. but y .. dun undersatnd mi.. haiis.. jux a sweet concern i oso happii.. but wad .. do ish jux saying in a sense of moilx own fault.. but.. need money is it moilx fault.. haiis.. why cant understand mii, be by moilx side.. haiis.. liddat .. i rather chose to run away.. now u know why?.. haiis.. i tink ii really nt suitable for steady now.. haiis.. tink moilx stead will gana hurt bahh.. so sorry.. sorry for doin this.. haiis.. i really veri tired no matter ish physically or psychologically.. haiis.. dui bu qi.. now i jux everythin oso dun wan.. i dun deserve it .. -_-" hmm.. starting attachment.. meii bao n moilx frenx.. kate dar, sandy, cat , ben, jeremy.. jia you.. hope see u guys soon in skol next term.. endure!! ^_^
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10/03/2006 01:05:00 AM